07 AUG 2007

Just to share some words or phrases or verse that i saw in the Magazine, "Vaidurya". which i think is..erm..nice? =] well, it makes senses to me, so i'll just share.

Venerable Shi FaZhao:

"Many sufferings in life come from one's anger and inability to relax. If one is always knitting one's brows in despair or knashing one's teeth in anger whenever one meets difficulties, then naturally one would always be unhappy. Life is short and everything passes in an instant. There is nothing worth worrying about.

We have two choices in life: to live happily or to live miserably. If you choose the former, then stop worrying about little things in life. Be kind to yourself and to life!"

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" "We have to always remember this saying," good begets good and evil begets evil. it's a matter of time." In life, if we plant good seeds, we will get good results. If we plant bad seeds, we will get bad results. This is not fatalism but a natural consequence of our thoughts and behaviour. To have a happy life, we have to understand that happiness comes from sincerity, acceptance and respect in human relationships. Our survival and development comes from countless human relationships so we should always live and let live."

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jObLess

aRghs~im jobless omg~ -__-

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im hoping every day will be a better day each time i open my eyes... i Need tO get a joB...

=.= *having a crappy day*

bLogging craps

mmMm~ went to watch StAy aLive last week... maybe because im abit of a gamer... thats why i kinda like this movie i supposed. The Website: http://video.movies.go.com/stayalive/

The atmosphere and all~ creepy..hmm and etc hahas.nice.maybe people who goes for story line based movie wont like it much~ plus it's like...combination of Gaming online and real life. But if such a game exist -_- i suppose i'll die of fright way before the countess find her way to me.

hmm~a few eye catching movies but~some doesnt have trailers *sads*~ im not sure if this is nice http://www.sukobthemovie.com/about.html a wedding curse movie. sometimes... nvr judge a movie by its synopsis -_-
i supposed this is a mystery film~ http://www.apple.com/trailers/universal/theblackdahlia/
This caught i supposed almost all's attention~if attention is paid to adverts during movie session? http://www.apple.com/trailers/touchstone/theprestige/
And the last one i supposed~ http://www.apple.com/trailers/miramax/thenightlistener/

If movie is not nice must let me know the reviews oO~ =)

*Still hoping every tml is a better day~* *cHeeRs*

waos~ i saw my last post... dated march 10. Man~what a lazy bone i have..hahas.around 7 months of not blogging. Each time i wanna blog.. jus felt tired~and i would reminisce about the day i started blogging. Well..how time flies. Now~i can only reminisce. hmm and~about the blog skin.well,i noticed i really like this skin,doesnt plan to change.it matches the melancholy me sometimes.

7 months of not blogging...when i look back,i felt i learned alot. So much things were going on...
Works are forever there.. til now,it's still pilling up. yaps~only a few days ago i almost broke down...cuz,i have to answer to 3 people regarding work,each pressing me to get it done by deadline...and the 3 deadlines are kinda close to each other.

Sometimes i wonder,what do we live for? for work? for money?
i wonder why are we so busy everyday...
sometimes i jus wanna take a break and bring my family out for a gd meal. i wanna take some time out,listen to what my mum have to say, hear her complain about her work, show her that i care. Maybe people will think that im just being such a pessimist, having negative thoughts...

Well, i used to think about all these but not alot, until my grandma pass away in around June. it was a terrible experience. Memories of my grandma just flashed across my head as i was holding back my tears. In my coming new year i wont get to see her anymore, she wont get to taunt us anymore. No matter what i do... she's gone. How fragile life can be~ i dreamt about her for a few weeks, i still miss her... her smile, her naggings. i tried to be strong during those days~when my mum's tears fell like rain. Some of my colleagues were supportive, a very special thanks to them. Cause' they touched my heart by contributing cares and concerns, what i see...is their effort, their friendships, kindness...and loves.these acts is enough to warm my heart; at least, humanity still survives in such a realistic world. I love my grandma. and though sometimes, i may not be patient enough to spare extra time for my mum... I love my mummy.
Around last month my boyfriend's grandfather passed away... such is life some would say *Sighs*

Well, we have to move on in life... like what people usually says, the world will just keep on turning. Memories~are kept in our heart.

Went to watch "The Banquet" yesterday. well, not bad but if you're someone who goes for action, laughters...skip this movie bah. It's a more "quiet" show but displays diiferent emotions about different people. Im still wondering if it's worth my ticket money. Recently i went to browse www.talkingcock.com website. hmm, inside the website, alot of post were promoting one of our local films just out recently, i went to download the trailer...looks not bad. The film is called "Singapore Dreaming", had slightly good feeling about this show after watching the trailer, you guys looking at what im typing can try viewing the trailer: http://www.singaporedreaming.com/trailer.htm

hmm,im still considering my resignation at my current job... *sighs* kinda mentally tired of the pilling workload.

Let's just hope every tml will be a better day *cheers*

Lost in the music of my own...

Theme of the day... "Lost in the music of my own..."
Frankly... i dont really know why did i come up with such title for the day... but well~sounds nice.jus... feeling kinda lousy todae. no idea why. i know i sound stupid... below written in chinese:

小丑也有悲伤的时候。。。
或许，是因为他的尊严。。。
所以 他不愿让人看见。。。
他告诉自己。。。
小丑的。。。
眼泪，是在心里流；
孤寂只能自己承受；
羡慕只能混合着妒嫉的滋味，硬吞进肚子里；
快乐是得和别人分享；
资格是能忍受被遗忘的时候；
自私是当他把孤单的一天留给自己；
伤心是当他得牺牲自己换取给别人的成全；。。。
还有许多。。。
他也曾想过。。。
什么时候，才是他真正感到快乐的时候~
当他想要一个属于自己的快乐。。。又害怕自己太自私。
当他想要别人和他分享的快乐。。。又害怕自己没资格。
当他想要别人和他一起的快乐。。。又害怕自己会伤心。

。。。如何是好~

---Blurarcher心底的话

好了啦。暂时 只想到这些。有空再续吧。让我一个人继续落寞。。。

backs... was wondering if i should blogged... im feeling~ bad... i dont know if i've got depression or what.Eventually i did a thing that betrayed myself. i'm not sure if it's a longing to do it or whatever... it doesn't feel gd. well...at least for a moment i thot i was in heaven. kinda make myself unfocused...divert my attn, my anger. what is it? im not sure... who else understands me? noone~ honestly. and i supposed noone will make an effort to do so i guessed. no respect for me in the home either... so i guess i prefer to stay at my bf's house... i supposed at least his mother will spare a glance for me sometimes someday on and off...my house? my home? they only knoow how to despise, only know how to bias, how to gossip abt you, how to throw unpleasant profanity at you if they think their english is more "powderful" then you. Some pple jus like to throw the unpleasant *F words at you cause they think they're so much cooler then you... or becuz they think their english is more beta then you. i supposed they dont find it uncivilized.
No offense... i dont mean everyone... i just wanna specifically mention... my younger sister. Out of her "respect" for me..she used *F word on me...not directly but in MSN. Yes...quarrel. so i apologise to her already... i supposed i've seen through so much in my house... al is like a show? movie? or... drama? yes...drama. i rather choose not to stay in this house with this kinda of sister...who is younger then me. hahas. funny... She likes to show her temper...right on her fae whether you like it or not... how selfish? If you ask her what's wrong... she'll just straight away give you a good scolding i supposed. Someone who doesnt... consider other people's feeling... She'll stab your heart by talking without using her brains. i supposed thats why she failed her O's and refused to retake the exam. She got either major brain damage or low IQ. i dont blame her...

Someone whom i supposed aint gd enough for me to give even a damn to her. Who is she to me? a bitch..? thats what my friend told me in school, while im in collage. They were saying how "Sexy" is her photo on friendster. i felt so embarrassed that i said nothing. One of my secondary sch friend even asked me if my sis is having any problems... why and how did she turned out like that in the photos... lols. I supposed to atract more guys... for what? how would i know? too bad i've deleted her from my friendster... *Phew*

i know i might be sounding crazy at the moment. Somehow... i guess i'll just have to treat her as my "sister" superficially.. going deeper? nothing else. She said she wanna disown me... fine. A trouble less for me. Why not. I dont have to face a bitch more often then.

She started it...